Don’t worry, I am still alive! Sorry I haven’t updated in awhile. Alot has happened. Let me fill you in…
I was laid off work on December 2nd! Yes, you read that right. I lost my job! The company that I worked for was out sourcing our data entry group to India. Can you believe that? We new it was happening just not that fast. They let me and my friend go and another lady who was a temp but she just became full time. 2 more girls have been told they are staying until the end of February and after that they are gone. There will be no more data entry group at all. Pretty sad isn’t it? I’ve been there for 9 years and I’m gone! I can’t believe they let me, a single mother go 3 weeks before Christmas! It was quite a shock and everyone was crying! Even our accounting manager was crying and she usually is a bitch!
My friend and I cleared out our desks and we said our goodbye’s and there were lots of tears and hugs! My friend invted me back to her house for lunch as this just happened before 12 noon. I said “No thanks, I think I will go home and cry.” My ex boss said “Pam, go to Jane’s and have a glass of wine.” I said “OK.” So after a nice lunch and whole bottle of wine later! LOL! We had a good cry and a few laughs. One of the girls came over after work to see how we were doing. We were happy she came by, it was so nice of her to give us support.
So of course this meant no Christmas party which I was so looking forward to. I was so upset about missing the Christms party you have no idea! And you no what this means? There will be no more D stories to write about! I didn’t say goodbye to him when this happened becos I was so upset and I didn’t want him to see me crying. I wonder what he thinks of all of this? I wonder if he misses me? I miss him so much it is killing me!
Luckily I was given a severance package. I am being paid until July, 2010 which I am very grateful for! If I didn’t have that, I would have to sell my house right away and who knows where we would live! Yes, I am very worried and scared about finding another job. There isn’t much out there at all. I am praying the market will pick up in the next couple of months.
I applied at a temp agency. My ex-husband actually gave me a lady’s name at this temp agency. She got my ex’s brother’s wife a good government job here in town. I called her yesterday and she emailed me a link to fill out a form on line which I did. I met her on January 5th and I had to fill out more forms and she asked me questions. We talked for awhile and I asked about the government job. She said they are one of there biggest clients and I said I would love to get in there so hopefully something will come up soon. She said January and February are slow months and it should pick up again in March. Hopefully something will come up and soon!
Of course losing my job sure put a bit of a damper on Christmas this year but I tried not to let losing my job ruin my Christmas. We had a very nice Christmas! J enjoyed his gifts very much as did I! We were spoiled as usual. I put some of the pictures up on Facebook so you will be able to see them there.
We had a quiet New Years as well. Every year we watch Dick’s ball drop! (snicker, snicker) LOL! I poured myself a glass of wine just before midnight and we waited for Dick’s ball to drop. Earlier we watched the hockey game World Juniors Canada team. It was quiet but fun!
I have been busy lately cleaning and organizing my house. It doesn’t look like I have done much but really I have. There is still alot more I want to get done before I go back to work.
For those of you who are interested I have been keeping in touch with D through Facebook. Just before Christmas I got up enough nerve to start chatting with him. I just said “Hey D, how are you. Just wanted to say Hi.” There was nothing for a minute or two and so I started to get upset thinking he isn’t going to respond but he did! He said “Hey, you surprised me. I didn’t know Facebook had this feature.” I told him you can chat with anyone on your friends list. Of course I am the only one on his friends list other than the sailing group he belongs too.
Anyway we chatted for a bit. He asked me how I was doing and he asked me what I was doing for Christmas. He said he was looking forward to having a few days off. I said to him “I guess you are going to your sisters or just hanging around the house?” He said “A bit of both.” Then all of a sudden he said “Sorry, I’ve gotta go. I will look for you again.” That made me happy when he said that but why did he have to go in such a hurry? It was only 10:30 at night! Oh well, at least he was talking to me!
Then a couple of days before Christmas I sent him a private message wishing him a merry Christmas and a happy and healthy New year. I said It would be nice to see you again. Maybe we could go for lunch? He didn’t answer and I was getting pretty upset I wasn’t hearing from him.
I even asked one of the girls I used to work with if he was there. They told me he wasn’t there! Finally he was back to work on Wednesday. Then Thursday night he finally answered my message! he told me he was away for the holidays and he wished me a Happy New Year! Was I ever on Cloud 99! So then I wrote him back and asked him where he went! He wrote me back yesterday telling me he drove down to Texas with his BIL and saw a couple of Football games. He said it was alot of driving but it was fun!
That’s all he said. I don’t know if he was here for New Years or not but I don’t think he was. I am going to wait a couple of days before I answer him back and I will ask him a question to get him to write me back! Hopefully he will.
But notice how he never mentioned lunch? I am sure he will never ask me and I guess he doesn’t like chatting becos it makes him uncomfortable. So I think he only likes to send private messages. If this is the only way he will keep in touch then I guess it will have to do. At least I am hearing from him but I am quite certain I will never see him again. This makes me very upset!
And to make matters worse. I don’t think he really even cares if he sees me again or not. So I am sure whatever friendship we did or do have will die eventually.
Anyway, that about keeps everyone up to date. Wish me luck on the job front and the D front. I would really appreciate it! I hope everyone had a great holiday and I hope 2010 is a wonderul year for you and your family!
And I promise I will try to be a better blogger!