It's Hockey Time – GO LEAFS!

I tried to post this yesterday but I was having trouble so I am posting it tonight.

This week is going by fast! I can’t believe it’s Thursday tomorrow already. I picked up J after work and we went to get our Halloween candy. We carved the pumpkin while trying to watch the Leafs game and the World Series tonight becos J is working tomorrow night. J tried his hand at the pumpkin and did a pretty good job being his first time! I must admit I did most of it though, practice makes perfect as they say! We had alot of fun carving the pumpkin!

Nothing much has been going on at work. We haven’t been too busy this week. D has been pretty quiet. He was away Monday and I asked our receptionist where “My buddy” was. She told me that she got an email from him on Friday saying that he was going to take a vacation day on Monday. I thought Oh ok, he is probably in Kingston and just left it at that. Just as I was standing there, the phone rang. The receptionist answered it and it was D calling in for V! Our receptionist said to me “Speak of the devil!” LOL! It was funny! I wish I answered the phone! LOL!

Then on Tuesday, I went up to the front and our repceptionist said to me “He was at a funeral yesterday. The funeral was in the morning so when he called he just got home.” I wasn’t even going to talk to her about D! She just blurted it all out! I told her I wasn’t going to ask her about it but I thanked her anyway for telling me! I was glad she did tell me becos I really was dying to know! LOL!

I actually have been ignoring D lately becos I am so mad that he isn’t going to the Christmas party. I still can’t believe he isn’t going. He is chicken shit! I had to cover lunch reception today and D walked by. I got a nice Hi from him as he kept on walking by. I didn’t say anything at all, I just looked the other way. I honestly don’t know why he doesn’t stop and talk to me.

Later on in the afternoon V came by and started teasing me about D as he always does. I said “He’s not talking to me.” V said “He has something weighing on his mind.” He said he wants to take him out to dinner so he can talk to him about it but it probably won’t be until next week.

At the end of the day, our receptionist told me that D had a Dr.’s appt this evening. She said he left early to go to it. I said to her “Oh, this is the appt that he told me about for his allergies. It was in October remember I told you about it?” She said “Yes, I do.” I hope he isn’t worried about it and he is OK. I know his allergies are still bothering him. I hope I get to find out about it tomorrow.

When I came into work this morning my friend/coworker came up to me and said her husband said to her “I think I might of found someone for Pam!” I couldn’t believe it!!! Her husband golf’s with him and they are golfing together tomorrow so he is going to talk to him and feel him out. I said to my friend “OK, now I’m scared!” Wish me luck! You never know this could be him!

This is for Bobbie and Susan… Today at work A (the young guy) send an email around about the Toronto Maple Leafs. It was an article about the Leafs being the NHL’s most valuable team. A sent it to all the Leaf fans and the Habs fans including D of course. I replied back to everyone saying “And yet all the jokes are all about the TML. Sigh…” Our accounting manager replied back “Becos they are funny” and this went on and on for a few emails. She said “Being a Habs fan you TML fans wouldn’t understand”. I replied back “Oh we understand alright!” And I put my Habs Suck logo underneath it! We have a relatively new guy in the office who is a TML leafs sign and he replied back saying…
“LOL! This is funny! This one looks better than there actual logo. This one is more realistic! LOL!” Well, it just cracked me up!!! This was the first time the new guy saw my Logo obviously. LOL! D never replied at all but he said to A that it was really funny! And it was! Chalk one up for me! Us TML fans one that round! LOL! I’m still laughing about it, mostly becos I konw D and all the Big wigs got a kick out of it too! LOL!

Speaking of Toronto Maple Leafs, I’m going to be a Toronto Maple fan tomorrow! I ordered a blue and white wig from the party store (it is hilarious!, I love it!) and I’m wearing J’s old jersey. His size small jersey is way to small for him but it fits me. It is actually a bit too big for me but it’s ok. I got the paint to paint my face blue and white and tattoo’s to put on my cheeks. One of my co-workers will help me in the morning when I come in. I can’t wait to see what all the hockey fans will say! And of course I hope to get a reaction from D even though I am still mad at him.

We each had to bring in candy so everyone gets a loot bad. We are having a nice luncheon so it will be fun. I am looking forward to it! Last year I won first prize, I was a grape! It would be cool if I won first prize this year too! LOL!

Our pumpkin is all carved, we have all the candy so everything is ready for tomorrow night for the trick or treaters. I enjoy seeing all the kids come to the door, they are so cute in there costumes! Especially the little ones! Have a safe and fun Halloween!

The weekend was pretty nice. I had a nice afternoon yesterday at the mall by myself as J was working. I browsed through some clothing stores but I didn’t really see anything that caught my eye. I picked up a few little things that I needed like my eyemake up remover at The Bay. I needed one of those magnetic pad of paper that you can stick on the fridge for grocery lists. I bought a cute Christmas one and it came with a nice pen to match. I also got more earing cleaner. We thought J needed a new battery for his watch but it turns out that it is the buttons that aren’t working so he needs a new watch. I don’t know if he can wait for Christmas. Right now he is using his cell phone to see what time it is. LOL!

I enjoyed watching the hockey game last night! The Leafs beat Ottawa 3 – 2! It was an exciting game! It was nice becos I had to go pick up J so I paused our DVR and he was able to watch the 3rd period with me.

My neighbor came over a few days ago and warned me that they were having a birthday/halloween party on Saturday night for their daughter who was turning 12. He said that the music would be a little loud for a couple of hours. And boy was it loud!!! My whole house was shaking and I’m sure my neighbor on the other side of me heard it too! I had to put up with the loud music all during the hockey game. I was pissed off a little but at least my neighbor warned me. They are a nice family and the music didn’t last too long so I really didn’t mind.

Today J and I put up our little pumkin lights. J’s father came over to fix the plug in my kitchen. One of my plugs hasn’t been working for quite a few weeks. I asked him to see if he could fix it becos he is good with wires. He used to be an electronic technologist. He was able to fix it for me so I was very happy! He brought over his son who is 9 (he is really cute!) and he and J played video games while his dad fixed it. We had a nice conversation while he worked away at it. It took him about an hour and then they left. I was really happy he was able to fix it!

This afternoon I dusted, tidied up the house and did three loads of laundry. Mom came over late afternoon with a big pot of beef stew she had made. J had ordered a wrestling paperview show that was on tonight. He was really looking forward to watching it so we ate dinner here instead. We haven’t had stew in awhile and it was delicious!

Mom helped me take down both shower curtains as they really needed washing. They sure are a pain to take down and put up so I’m glad they are done. They look much nicer!

I’m exhausted and really soar from climbing up the ladder and walking up and down the stairs all day. I just had a nice hot shower and now I’m ready for bed. I hope everyone had a good weekend!

Today was one of those days. I couldn’t really concentrate so I was glad we didn’t get much mail in. Our group had a few good laughs from emails that were sent around and well, everything just seemed to be funny today. You need days like that every once in awhile.

D seemed to be quiet the past couple of days but today I was going to the photocopier and I felt someone coming up behind me but I was looking straight ahead. I caught him looking at me and he seemed happy and excited to see me. I got a nice big “Hi Pam, how are you?” I said “I’m ok and you?” He said “Good.” as he kept on walking. He was on his way to the board room for a meeting.

You see, there it is again. He just says “Good.” I am so frustrated with him, you have no idea! Part of me wants to give him the cold shoulder treatment again and part of me wants to say to sit down and have a long talk with him and tell him exactly how I feel about him. I know there is something there between us damn it! I know there is! He certainly doesn’t act like that when he sees one of the other girls in the office. I don’t know what to do. I’m so tired of him just asking how I am and him just saying “Good.” What should I do? Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!

We don’t have too much planned for the weekend. J works early shift tomorrow afternoon. After I drop him off I am going to do my errands and go to the mall. I’m going to start looking for a top to wear to the Christmas party.

I will order pizza and watch the Leafs vs Ottawa. I’m looking forward to watching the game, it’s going to be good! It’s going to be nice picking J up early instead of at midnight. I’m going to come home and enjoy a nice hot bubble bath!

Sunday will probably be the usual cleaning stuff. I hope everyone has a good weekend!

I went to WW at lunch to weigh in and I gained 1.6 lbs! I am so upset with myself you have no idea! I expected a gain but certainly not that much considering I didn’t really eat much all Thanksgiving weekend becos of my migraine. So now I weigh 141.2 and of course I had to pay again this week.

That sure put me in a grumpy mood for the rest of the day. I told the girls at work that I was making a big pot of spaghetti for dinner and have a glass of wine to help my mood. I told them that I may even have the whole bottle and if I call in sick tomorrow they will know why! LOL! I only had one glass and I enjoyed it!

I honestly don’t know what I am doing wrong. I don’t know why I am gaining weight. I am doing the same thing that I have been doing all along. The only thing I can think of is that it is becos some days we eat late at night, like at about 8:00 and then I just sit on the couch and watch my show or the hockey game. Then I have my cup of tea and 1 WW chocolate cakes and a WW chocolate chip cookie! They are so good, they are my little treat! Don’t worry, I include those in my points. I need to start doing sit ups daily and seriously. I’m so afraid of gaining more weight, it’s driving me crazy. I will go next week and weigh in and hopefully I will lose something. Wish me luck please!

D has been friendly the past couple of days. I saw him few times yesterday. He came into the kitchen at lunch. I have been eating at my desk the past little while so I haven’t seen him. I’m pretty sure he came in to see if I was in there. I also caught him walking by our group which he normally doesn’t do. He usually takes the long way around to avoid walking by all the time. I was at the photocopier yesterday when he was leaving and I actually got a Goodnight from him. This morning he was at an off site meeting with A (the young guy) and they didn’t get back untill after lunch. I passed by him in the hall and I got a cute Hi and a little nod from him. If only he knew how much he makes my day!

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I’m off to bed, I’m so tired! How is your week going?

It was a pretty quiet weekend. We went to the mall yesterday. J had an appt to get his hair cut. I asked my hair dresser if she could just cut my bangs but since she had a cancellation (and since I needed a full cut anyway) she was able to do me. I was quite happy she could cut my hair but I feel it’s too short now and I can’t do my bangs the way I like too. I wet my hair and use a little moose in the morning to poof up my bangs. Oh well, my hair grows pretty fast so I guess I can put it with it for a couple of weeks. I need to get my roots done but I am not going to. I’m going to wait a few more weeks and just get it highlighted for the Christmas party. I’ll save some money that way too.

J got his pass port picture taken so we are glad to get that finally done. I will pick it up next weekend.

We came home and I made myself a cup of tea and J relaxed a bit before he had to go to work. After I drove him to work, I went to Walmart to check it out. It has recently been rennovated and now it is huge! I just got some lightbulbs and a night light and my diet green tea. I walked around too much and it really did me in. My legs were so soar.

I came home and ordered pizza and watched the Leafs lose to Pittsburg 4 – 1. I was so tired from walking around so much at Walmart I fell asleep and missed some of the 2nd period.

This afternooon I tidied up the house and I did two loads of laundry. J went to his dad’s and then we went to Mom’s for dinner to have the last of the turkey. I must say that I enjoyed it much better this time around becos last weekend I had that awful migraine.

Tomorrow is another Monday. I have a feeling it’s going to be a boring week. Hope everyone had a good weekend!

I was in a good mood this morning until V came up to me and told me that D may not be going to our Christmas party this year. He said D said that he has gone to the last 3 Christmas parties and he is thinking of taking a break this year. Well, I wouldn’t be surprised if he doesn’t go. I said that to a couple of my friends becos it was so good last year between us that he doesn’t want a repeat of it and he is scared. He is chicken shit!!! He is scared something is going to happen between us so he doesn’t want to go. I feel like saying to D, Are you not coming to the Christmas party becos of me? I’m sure he wouldn’t say “Yes, that’s right.” But I know that is the real reason. Yes, I am really pissed off but I am not as upset as I thought I would be. D always says that he may not be going and then he goes at the last minute. I wouldn’t be surprised if he doesn’t go though. Please keep your fingers crossed for me!

I hadn’t seen D all day and I was getting ticked off. I was over talking to my friend/co-worker just after 4:00 pm and someone walked by me. I turned to look to see who was walking by and it was D. He had his nice leather coat on and he said “See ya.” and kept walking. He went out the back way. I said “See ya.” That was it. It pissed me off more than it made me happy becos if I wasn’t there at that time talking to my friend I wouldn’t of seen him leave. Then I wouldn’t of seen him all day.

I heard him talking to a co-worker girl for about 10 minutes. The lady who sits beside me went over to see what they were talking about. She said it wasn’t personal, that they were talking business becos they were looking over some papers. Of course I have my doubts becos I saw him standing there talking to her for awhile. It could of been both though.

I just don’t understand why he doesn’t come over to me and say “Hey, how is it going.” He pisses me off so much I just wish I could forget about him. You have no idea how frustrated I am!

Today would of been my father’s 80th birthday! I have been thinking about him all day. I still miss him so much and think about him all the time. Happy Birthday daddy, I love you!

I’d write more but it’s late and I’m going to bed. We have are usual errands to do tomorrow and going to the mall. J is getting his hair cut and he has to get his passport picture taken. I hope to go to Walmart becos it has been newly rennovated. It is huge now so I want to go and check it out if we have time.

I watched the Leafs lose to New York tonight in a shoot out 1 – 0. It was a good game even though there wasn’t any scoring. Tomorrow night we play Pittsburg. That should be interesting! Sunday will be the usual cleaning day and to Mom’s for dinner. I hope everyone has a good weekend!

Nothing much has been going on. We were swamped on Tuesday which is what we were expecting to be but we haven’t been too busy the past couple of days. We managed alright even being two girls short.

I had to cover lunch reception yesterday. D walked by early on his way out for lunch and waved at me. He kind of caught me off gaurd. I just smiled back at him. A few minutes later he came back up with his lunch he got from downstairs. When he came through the doors he said “How are you doing?” I said “Ok, how are you?” he said “Good.” Just as I expected. Of course I was ticked off becos he didn’t stop and talk to me.

A little while later he walked by again and went out into the hallway. V came by and said “Hi.” to me and we talked for a couple of minutes. V had his sun glasses on so I figured out that the D was waiting out in the hall for V and they were going for a walk. Why wouldn’t D wait at the reception desk (where I was) for V and talk to me? The more I thought about it, the more pissed off I got.

This afternoon, I was over talking to my friend and D walked by and nodded at me. He seemed stressed. He walked by again a few minutes later. We both caught each other looking at each other. It was like, I caught him looking at me and he caught me looking at him. It was the weirdest thing. Even my friend noticed and said “What was that?” It was funny! LOL!

Then a little while later I get an email from D! He sent it with High Priority! It was a Toronto Maple Leaf joke! He not only sent it to me but he sent it to everyone in the hockey pool becos not everyone in the hockey pool is a TML fan. I know darn well he meant it for me though. I’m sure he just didn’t want to single me out. I emailed him back and said “Very funny… Don’t worry, I will get even with you! LOL! I replied only to him (not to everyone) but he never responded back. That’s ok though, I didn’t expect him to. I’m just tickled pink he sent me an email and he sure made my day! And I will get even with him! LOL! I am really surprised he is starting to send jokes already. I think this is going to be interesting!

J worked last night and tonight. He has his Leadership program tomorrow night and he works on Saturday night. He is a busy guy! School is going well for him and he seems happy!

I have another headache tonight and I feel so tense. It’s late and I’m off to bed. Only one more day and it’s the weekend!

Was I ever surprised when I signed on last night to see I have a new look! A Toronto Maple Leaf look! I was absolutely thrilled as I wanted a Leaf look. Sue-Ellen new I was feeling down and she wanted to cheer me up and it sure did! Thank you so much Sue-Ellen! I really love it!

We lost big time last to Montreal Saturday night 6 – 1. I am sure I will never hear the end of it at work tomorrow. It will be interesting to see if D says anything to me. I’m not going to say anything to me unless he does. I joined the hockey pool at work and I was surprised D did this year. For the past couple of years he has been saying to me. “I’m not going to watch hockey until January, the season is just too long.” Does this mean he is going to watch hockey? Who knows with him. D was in third place and now he has dropped down to 9th. I was in 28th spot and now I am in 22nd place. There is 31 of us in the pool. It is going to be an interesting season. I can always talk about the hockey pool to him if nothing else, I guess. It wonder why he joined the pool this year. What’s up with that?

I woke up with a nasty migraine on Saturday morning. My head hurt so much I was almost in tears. I felt nauseous all day. I slept most of the day but I had to drive J to work which I shouldn’t of. I went right back to bed when I got home. It was awful! I haven’t had a bad migraine like that in awhile. I didn’t eat or drink anything all day except a little water. I was just too nauseous.

I have been so looking forward to watching the Opening night game against Montreal and the revealing of the new HNIC theme for months, you have no idea! And I end up with a migraine. It figures, I was so pissed off! I woke up about 9:30 and went downstairs and turned on the TV. I layed on the couch but I turned my head and just listened to it. I felt a bit better so I made myself some chicken noodle soup but I couldn’t eat it.

After the game I went back to bed. I had to pick up J from work and there was no way I was going out at 12:30 in the morning so when he called to say he was ready I told him to have his manager drive him home. He ended up coming home at 1:00 am. I was awake but barely.

When I awoke Sunday morning I felt better but not 100%. I felt so drained from my migraine. I was worried I wouldn’t be able to enjoy my turkey dinner at Mom’s. I had a nice shower and that helped a little. I felt better as the day went on and I was able to eat Mom’s turkey dinner and I enjoyed it! Minus the wine though, I didn’t want to take a chance. Everything was delicious, I love my mother’s cooking! It was just J and my aunt. My mother invited a friend of my aunt’s and our family. She is a very sweet old lady who is all by herself and lives in the building. It was nice to have her join us for dinner.

I feel much better today but still not 100%. I still feel kind of weak from my migraine. J went to the Toronto Maple Leafs game against St. Louis with his friend and his parents. The boys were so excited to go! They both wore there TML jerseys of course! I watched the game and during breaks I did two loads of laundry. It was a very exciting game but we lost in a shoot out 5 – 4! J is on his way home as I am typing this. I can’t wait to hear all about it!

Mom came over with left over turkey but I feel like pizza tonight since I didn’t have it on Saturday night. We may have the turkey tomorrow night. Mom helped me dig up all the impatience in my front garden. They didn’t do very well at all this year becos of all the rain we had. I threw out my hanging basket and now there is just my pumpkin sitting on my front porch.

The weather here has been just beautiful all weekend about 22 degrees! It’s too bad I missed it. I actually had the a/c on for awhile this afternoon. My house is very warm!

Tomorrow it’s back to work. I know we are going to be really busy becos we are short two girls tomorrow and one is off all week. That’s ok though, I’d rather be busy than not. It’s nice becos it is a short week! I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!

I haven’t felt much like writing here this week. I have been feeling very tired and blah. So what else is new though. Work is going well. We haven’t been too busy this week.

D is still the same. I was coming out of the kitchen yesterday and he was coming in and we practically bumped right into each other. He said “Hey Pam , how are you?” he said it like he was really surprised to see me. It sounded like he wanted to talk but he kept on going to the coffee machine and I was practically out the door anyway so I said “I’m ok, how are you?” He said “Good.” Just as I expected he would. What is the point in asking him how he is? He always says just “Good.” and keeps on going. I’ve kind of been giving him the “Whatever” attitude to see what he does.

I had to cover lunch reception today as well as Monday. D came by and I got his cute little nod and a nice Hi and he went out to lunch with A (the young guy). He had plenty of time to stop and say “Hi, how are you? What’s new?” But of course he doesn’t. I honestly don’t understand the man. I see he has booked Friday off (to go to his boat, I am sure) so I won’t see him for 4 days now. I just wish I can get him out of my mind. He is pissing me off big time!

I have been feeling down the past couple of days. I know it has alot to do with D. The thing is I know there is something there between us, the way he says Hi to me. He doesn’t say it like that to anybody else. I know he doesn’t. Why doesn’t he just admit it? I’m having no luck with Lava Life. I know it’s only been a few days but you should see the losers I am getting “smiles” from. I know that’s not very nice but you know what I mean.

I’m getting smiles from a middle easterner and a guy in a wheel chair. The ones who I have sent smiles too haven’t responded and probably won’t. I have had over a hundred views so you would think I would be getting alot more smiles. I guess I have to be more patient. So far I have not been impressed with Lava life.

I had a Dr.’s appt on Tuesday aftenrooon for my rosecea. It’s been acting up again and my family Dr. made an appt for me to see a specialist. He prescribed me more antibiotics and cream and I am to go back in about a month. I have a red spot on my left shoulder for about a couple of months and I was a little worried about it. I showed him the mark and sure enough he said it could be skin cancer. But it isn’t serious. He said he would burn it off next time I see him. Both my mother and my aunt has had serious skin cancer on there face. And they were really nasty looking. I was so glad to hear the Dr. say it wasn’t serious!

It’s late and I am off to bed. I hope everyone is having a good week.

I did something I never thought I would do this weekend. OK, get your mind out of the gutter! LOL! I joined Lava Life! I really surprised myself! I can’t believe I actually did it! I signed up for 3 months and put it on my card. Yes I did! A co-worker signed me up on a free 7 day trial a couple of weeks ago. I didn’t even know she did. I do not trust these dating sites but I must admit I do enjoy looking at the men’s profiles. I did get a few “smiles”, I call them “bites” (LOL!) but I haven’t replied to the ones that have smiled at me becos I don’t like them. I am very fussy! Hey, I should be!

I have sent 2 smiles and so far they haven’t smiled back at me. Maybe they won’t. If I don’t hear back from anyone I send a smile too by the time my 3 months are up, that’s it! I am done with the on line dating thing. So we shall see what happens. This should be interesting. Wish me luck please!

It’s been a hockey weekend! I watched the Leafs vs Detroit on Friday night and we lost 5 – 3. We played Detroit agian on Saturday night and we lost 4 – 3. We played the Columbus Blue Jackets tonight and we lost in a shoot out 5 – 4 and we were up 2 goals in the 3rd period! I t hink it is going to be a long season! Matts Sundin please come back!!!

today I did two loads of laundry, changed the beds and tidied up the house. Mom came over and we BBQ’s hambergers. We hadn’t had hambegers in awhile and they were really good!

J is doing really well. He worked last night. He called head office and asked for another day. He got his schedule for next week and he works three days so he is pretty happy. He ordered a pay per view wrestling show which he enjoyed watching tonight on his HD TV.

Tomorrow is another Monday. The only good thing about going to work is seeing D of course! I hope he is friendlier this week. I hope everyone had a good weekend!