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I went to my Dr.’s appt Thursday after work.  I got the results of my mammogram that I had done a week ago.  There are two areas that showed micro califications (in my right breast) so I have to have a biopsy done.  I am trying to be optimistic about this and hoping it is just calcium build up.  If it is the early signs of breast cancer, I don’t know what I would do!  I am freaking out but I am trying not to think about it.  I am trying to be calm.  My Dr.’s office is going to set up the appt and call me.  After the biopsy is done, I am to see a breast specialist.

There is no sign of breast cancer in my family at all, thank goodness!  But since they want a biopsy done that leads me to believe there is a chance it is the early stage of cancer.  And this scares me!  I don’t know, maybe I am over reacting but wouldn’t you feel this way?

My bone density test is fine!  My bones are good!  It’s kind of funny becos I was more worried about the bone density test than the mammogram.  The Dr. is recommending I have another one in three years.

Oh, and I gained 8 lbs!  The last time I went to weight watchers was in December I believe, I weighed 139.  That is 2 lbs over my goal weight.  I stepped on the scale in the Dr.’s office and it said I weigh 147.  So I am 10 lbs over my goal weight.  I knew I gained!  I am frustrated right now.  I am still eating the same food.  My zero point soup and my smart ones.  I have gone up one size in pants.  I’m going to try to cut back in my dinner portions and hope that will help.  Wish me luck, I sure will need it!

I have had a quiet weekend, nothing going on at all.  Mom came over tonight and we Bbq’d hambegers.  After dinner she drove J to his friends house.  A few of his friends got together to watch a wrestling pay per view show and play video games after.  It is almost 1:00 in the morning and he is still there!  Ahhh, the life of a teenager!  At least he gets to sleep in, in the morning!

I have to get up so I am off to bed.  Can you tell I am a night hawk?  I hope everyone had a good weekend! 

I’ve been neglecting to post about my health.  I should have mentioned that I was called back for another mammogram becos the first one showed Micro-calification.  Micro-calcifications are tiny calcium deposits that show up as fine white specks on a mammogram. They are usually found in an area of the breast where cells are being replaced more quickly than normal. Micro-calcifications are not usually due to cancer. In a small number of cases, however, a group of micro?calcifications seen in one area (a cluster), may be a sign of pre?cancerous changes in the breast, or of an early breast cancer.

The exray technician did tell me there was a cluster found in one area of my right breast.  I went for another mammogram last Thursday morning (before work) and I have a Dr. appt tomorrow after work to get the results.  Of course, I am really worried about this.  Fortunately, there is no sign of breast cancer in our family.

My appt is not until after work.  I have been fretting all week and and I will be worse tomorrow.  I also get the results from my bone density test that I had at the same time I had my first mammogram.  I’m also going to complain about my arthritis in my hips.  I am in so much pain all the time, I can’t stand it and I need drugs!  Extra strength advil isn’t helping anymore.  I just hope I don’t have to wait a long time in the waiting room!  Please wish me luck tomorrow.  I sure am going to need it!

I have had a nice, quiet relaxing weekend.  Yesterday J and I went to the mall as usual.  Later on I drove him to work.  I didn’t bother renting a movie becos I wanted to do my Florida pictures.  It’s long time overdo!  I have the program from Black’s on my computer and I can do them on line and send them right to the store.  It’s pretty cool actually!  I knew it would take me a long time to go through all my pictures and it did.  I probably won’t pick them up until next weekend though. 

I admit I didn’t do anything today really.  And I don’t feel guilty one bit!  Well, I did do two loads of laundry but I gave myself a break from cleaning and I sat outside in the sun for a good hour or so.  I don’t want to lose my tan and this was the first nice warm, sunny day we have had in a long time so I took advantage of it.  It was nice to get some colour!

J went to his Dad’s for the afternoon and went swimming.  He gave his dad a gift certificate at the beer store for Father’s day.  J said he was happy with his gift.  We went to my mother’s for dinner.  She cooked roast beef and it was delicious! 

 I’ve been thinking about my father and my step dad all day.  Father’s day is always so hard for me but not as hard as April 2nd.  It isn’t a day that I look forward to.

It’s Monday already tomorrow.  I have a feeling it’s going to be a busy week.  So how was your weekend?

J and I are so excited becos Steve Mason won the Calder trophy last night at the NHL Awards.  J was working so we recorded it.  I was so excited when he won!  I messaged J right away but I new he wouldn’t get it until after he finished work and he was closing.  Right after the show his friends started calling  him.  They didn’t know he was working.  When he got off work he was messaging his friends, they were all excited for Mason!

When I picked up J, he had a brown envelope.  He finally got his new work shirt that he ordered months ago.  I said “What else is in their?”  He said “I will show you when we get home.”  When we got home he took everything out of the envelope.  He show me a gold pin.  On the pins it says Employee of the month!  J is Employee of the month!  But it’s for April, they are a couple of months behind!  LOL!

J also got a few Free coupon meals and a nice watch with an M on it.  His picture is going to be put up in the retaurant for awhile and he will get a copy of it his manager told him!   So as you can see, last night was very exciting in our house!  He is very happy about getting the Employee of the month and I am very proud of him!

This afternoon we had a company BBQ at Bronto Creek park which is right across the street from our office.  It was a fun time!  The hamburgers were good and we had fun in the sun!  People were playing baseball, some were throwing freezbies, playing catch and we had water guns and balloons.  Some people went for walks as they have really nice trails and some of us just sat in the sun and watched everything going on like I did.  I actually got quite a bit of sun on my face and arms.  It was so nice to sit there and relax for a few hours!  It was nice becos the co-workers brought there new born babies so it was nice to see them.

I didn’t get to talk to D at the picnic.  He was having fun playing catch and then he went over to the baseball field.  But I did notice him looking over at me a few times!   We were allowed to leave right after the picnic but I went back to the office to get some work done.  I was going down to the kitchen to make my tea and I saw D who was leaving.  He looked out of breath and tired so I said “Are you ok?”  He smiled and said “Yes.”  I said “Are you sure?”  He said “I think I’ll live.”

Then he said “I see you friend won the Calder award.  I didn’t see it but I read about it.”  I said “Yeah, he did!  His speech was great!”  D said “He will probably have a party, you should go and crash it.”  lol!  Then another co-worker who heard our conversation said ”I’m having a party tomorrow night.”  I said “You are having a party and you didn’t invite me?”  D said “You didn’t invite me either?”

You see?  All someone has to do is have a party or invite us out for lunch or drinks and then it will happen!  I couldn’t believe it when he said that!  Why is it so hard?

I forgot to mention last night D was working late.   On his way out he came by and said “Ready for the picnic tomorrow?”  I said “Ya, I am.”  He said “It should be fun!”  We talked about the picnic and I told him that I was looking forward to watching the NHL awards.  I told him that Steve Mason lives on our street!  We talked for quite awhile.  He sure is being friendly lately and I really like it!    I just don’t get why he won’t ask me out for lunch.

We aren’t doing too much this weekend.   We are going to the mall tomorrow and treat ourselves to lunch and get a few things.  J works tomorrow night and I will order pizza and probably rent a movie.  Sunday is more cleaning and we are going to my mothers for dinner.  I hope everyone has a good weekend! 

So it is confirmed that Steve Mason – goalie of the Columbus Blue Jackets does live on our street!  He lives on the next block and we can see his house from our house!  I was talking to my neighbor Monday morning (the one that runs the daycare) after I drove J to school and I told her that J saw Mason’s truck in the driveway and she said “Yes he does live there, that’s his parents house!”  I don’t know how long they have lived there but apparently Steve used to cut my neighbor’s lawn!  I remember she asked J to cut her lawn maybe 3 years ago or so but J being lazy didn’t want too.  So she said she was going to ask one of the neighbors kids to cut it and it was Steve!  I’m sure we saw him and we didn’t even know who it was.  Mind you he didn’t play in the NHL then but he does now.  And he is an amazing goalie and he is only 21!  He is up for the Vezina award and the Calder Trophy!  I am pretty sure he will win won of them.  I’m really looking forward to watching the NHL awards on Thursday night!

J is so excited about this!  He keeps looking at his house to see if his truck is in the driveway!  lol!  We pass by the house at least twice a day.  J told his friend about this and his friends favorite team is the Columas blue jackets and one of his favorite players is Steve.  J’s friend has a Columbus blue jackets so he wants to get his jersey autographed by Mason.  I will be surprised if they go knocking on his door!  lol!

I am even excited about this and of course I told everyone when I got to work!  I was talking to my co-worker who was covering reception at lunch.  I asked her if D had walked by yet and she said he went down to get his lunch.  I waited a couple of minutes and he came back up.  I walked with him back to his desk and I told him about Mason.  He said “Maybe you will get free tickets?”  I said “Or maybe an autograph.”  He thought it was pretty cool!

D has been pretty friendly lately!  I was covering lunch reception today and my friend/co-worker came up to talk to me.  I heard someone walk by and I thought it might be D.  He couldn’t see me becos she was blocking me.  So I figured D would keep on going out the door but what does he do?  He pretended to walk right by the desk so he could see if I was sitting there!  He turned right around when he got past the wall and came back and gave me a cute smile and went down to get his lunch.  My friend had left by the time he came back up and he asked me where our receptionist was.  She has been off sick so I was telling him all about it.  He was quite friendly and he was joking around with me.  I was really surprised! 

When we were in the kitchen eating lunch, D came up to the printer about 5 times and he looked right in.  I swear he does to see if I’m in there eating lunch.  V came around later and he told me they were going out for drinks after work.  I sure would like to be fly on the wall and be able to hear everything they say.

Work hasn’t been too busy so far this week and we are starting to learn the new way of doing our job.  They are laying off staff I am getting pretty worried that I will be one of the one’s let go.  With this new modern technology they will only need a couple of data entry clerks.  They may even let all of our group go and have someone else completely different doing it.  We don’t know who they will keep and we are all really worried.  I would hope becos I have top senority I would get to stay but you never know these days.

J’s official last day of High school is tomorrow.  He actually has officially graduated last year.  J has only two exams this semester.  He has one on Thursday and one next Tuesday and after that he is officially done.  He is kind of sad about it but he is excited about starting College in the Fall.  I remember when he was in Grade 8, I was so worried about how high school would be for him.  It turnes out he loved it!  He did really well and even won an English award!  He even stayed an extra year to do a victory lap, to improve his marks and mature some more which he has.  And now he is ready for College.  Yes, I am worried but I’m sure he will be just fine.  He has a good attitude and just like one of his Grade 9 teachers said to him during a parent teacher interview, “You have a good attitude and with a good attitude you will go far, no matter what you chose to do.”  I will never forget that!  I am so very proud of you J!

Thank you so much Sue-Ellen for giving me a new look!  I love it!  I was getting tired of the old one!  LOL!  I guess I haven’t written in a few days.  I just haven’t had the energy to sit here and post anything.  I will try to catch up.

It was been steady at work.  Tomorrow we are suppose to start the new way of doing our job.   Instead of doing data entry we just scann the invoices, the scanner reads it and it goes right into our system.   They are laying off a few of the girls in our group becos of this.  Thank god I have top senoirty or I would be out of a job!  They can’t do all the invoices this way so they will still need about 3 of us luckily.

D has been quiet but on Friday when he was leaving he said “See ya Pam.”  I couldn’t believe it becos everyone was still around!  I said  “Hey D.” and he came over and I asked him if he was going to watch the big game between Pittsburg and Detroit.  He said “Yes!”  I asked him who he was cheering for and he said “Detroit.”  I said “You always cheer for the opposite.’  He just kind of laughed.  Anyway we talked about the game and we talked about baseball.  I told him J got a seasons pass and goes to the baseball games all the time with his friends.  I told him that they ahve free giveaways and he get bobbleheads.  D said that he got one and if J didn’t have it, he would give it to him.  Isn’t he sweet?  It turnes out that J does have it but it sure was nice of D offering it to him. 

It was really nice talking to him and he came right over to me!  He didn’t just stand by our group in the hallway like he usually does.  At the end of the conversation he said “Enjoy the game!”  I said “You too!”  He left early so I’m thinking he went to Kingston to go sailing and probably watched the game there.  I’m not sure though.  I will try to ask him tomorrow.  We had a good long chat and it really made my day, my weekend!

The game was so exciting!  I almost couldn’t watch it at the end.  I was so glad Pittsburg won the cup!  I’m so happy for Crosby and Fluerry was amazing! 

J and I went to the mall yesterday afternoon.  We treated ourselves to Mr. Sub for lunch and J got a new bathingsuit.  J worked last night and I rented the movie “He’s just not that into you.”  I really liked it, it’s a good movie!  I think I should of been in it though.  LOL!

I did the usual tidiing up today and cleaning.  I did three loads of laundry and I vacuumed.  I also helped mom in the backyard garden.  Now my back is absolutely killing me.  I am in alot of pain.  I hope I’m ok tomorrow.   We bbq’d hambergers tonight and had caeser salade.  It was really good! 

J went to his dad’s this afternoon.  His father only lives about 10 minutes down the street.  And on his way down he saw Steve Mason – goalie of the Columbus blue jackets!  J and his friends have seen Mason around our area a few times now.  He drives a black ford pick up truck and his license plate is… 1 mase … so he knows it’s him!  He was playing basketball with his friend on his friends driveway!  It’s only a block away from our hosue!  How cool is that!!!  When J came back from his dad’s house he was so excited and he called his friend to tell him.  J’s friend is actually knows Mason and he played hockey with him a few years ago.  They were on the same team.  J’s friend lives two doors down from Mason’s girlfriends house.

Anyway, I’m exhausted and I’m going to bed.  I hope everyone had a good weekend! 

My weekend was pretty good. I got alot of cleaning done and I today I am feeling pretty soar from it. My back is killing me and I am in a lot of pain. I hope I feel better tomorrow.

Today wasn’t too busy and I managed to get all caught up so I’m feeling pretty good about that. I was hoping to talk to D about his ride yesterday. I was trying to find the right moment. I didn’t want to ask him if I passed by him in the hall becos I know he would just say “It was good.” especially if he was busy. I was going to go up to him at his desk but I couldn’t get up enough nerve.

Just before noon I was going down the hall to the washroom and a co-worker (who has only been with us for about 6 months) stopped me in the hall to talk to me. D walked by and gave me the nicest smile! My co-worker saw it and noticed it. She couldn’t believe how his face lit up as soon as he saw me. She doesn’t understand why he doesn’t ask me out either. She also said “He is so nice!”

A couple of times through out the day I passed by D in the hall but I was talking to a co-worker so I couldn’t talk to him. He also walked by the kitchen and looked in to see if I was in there eating my lunch.

It was getting late in the day and I was getting worried I wouldn’t get a chance. I knew he had a meeting late in the afternoon so I figured he would be working late which I was right. So I was hoping he would walk by on his way out and I would talk to him then.

I heard him walk by and he never said anything. I was so disappointed! I couldn’t believe he just walked by and didn’t even say anything. I heard him talk to A (the young guy) about the meeting, then I heard him walk back (past me) to his desk. A few minutes later he walked by and said “See ya Pam.” I really think he went back to his desk just so he could walk by me again to say Goodnight! I said “Hey, how was your ride yesterday?” and he told me all about it! I won’t tell you the whole conversation but we talked for quite awhile! It was good! I knew it was good timing for me to ask hiim. He didn’t seem to be in a hurry to leave either. So I was really happy and I’ve been smiling all night!

I really wish I could sit down and talk with him and say “What the heck is the matter with you! Why haven’t you aske me out yet? I know there is something there between us! Do you have a girlfriend? (No, I don’t) Then come on, we are going out!” I think I could only say that if I had a couple of glasses of wine! LOL!

It will be interesting to see how the summer goes with no hockey. There won’t be too much to talk about. I have to come up with something! LOL! How was your weekend?

My good mood didn’t last long. Wed and Thurs morning I was wakened up by the cat we are looking after at 5:00 am. He was trying to jump up on the window ledge which isn’t very wide at all. He scared the crap out of me! He really startled me! I went back to sleep but I woke up with a headache both mornings and I was so tired and soar. I need my sleep and I was grumpy the rest of the day. Last night I had a better sleep so I was in a better mood today. I am still pretty soar and my left leg is really bothering me. I am keeping my eye on it.

Work has been steady busy the past couple of days but I’m getting caught up. D has been pretty quiet all week until today. He took yesterday afternoon off and V called him and asked him what he was doing. D said he had a couple of errands to do. We both found that kind of strange as that is all he said. Isn’t that what weekends are for?

Anyway, a friend/co-worker came over to talk to me later on in the afternoon and D walked by. She yelled out “Hi D. What are you doing this weekend? Going sailing?” D came over into my group and he told us he is biking for the heart and stroke foundation on Sunday. I knew about it becos he had a sponser sheet at reception. I would of sponsered him but I just can’t afford it right now. Of course I didn’t tell him that. We talked about it for quite awhile. It was my friend that was asking him most of the questions though. He did tell us where it was and who he was doing it with. I actually know his friend. He use to work at our company. He told us it was 75 K and I told him he will probably be very soar on Monday. He knows he will be. Unfortunately, it is suppose to rain on Sunday so I hope he is ok. It was funny becos he said “Watch for me on the news.” I hadn’t thought of that so now I will have to watch the news to see if I can see him! lol! I will ask him how is he on Monday. I hope he isn’t too soar, he said he hasn’t rode his bike in a long time. I will definately be thinking about him on Sunday!

Of course I got a few looks from co-workers when D was over talking to us. Like “oh my he is talking to you!” I just smiled. D didn’t see them, thank goodness! lol! then they came over to tease me about it

We don’t have too much planned this weekend. We are going to the mall tomorrow and we will treat ourselves to our usual Mr. Sub. J needs to top up his minutes with Telus. I want to get a couple of pictures printed.

J works tomorrow night and I am going to watch the Pittsburg and Detroit game. The series is tide at 2. I sure hope Pittsburg wins! it is going to be an exciting game!

Sunday is the usual cleaning day. Mom is busy doing some volunteer work and it is suppose to rain so there will be no BBQ. J is busy also. He is going to the ball game with his friends in the afternoon and then going to the wrestling show at the theatre in the evening. I won’t see him all day! Ahhh, the life of a teenager! lol! Have a good weekend everyone!

I have been in a good mood all week! I have been feeling pretty good. I haven’t been too soar or too tired and no headaches. I’m not sure why but I am really happy about it. I think it could be from seeing D on facebook on Saturday night. He didn’t message me or anything, I knew he wouldn’t but I am pretty sure he was thinking about me. He had to be!

The only thing that has bothered me was hearing his cell phone last night. I heard A (the young guy) talking to D in the hall by our group and then I heard a cell phone go off. I didn’t know it was his but I heard A say “Is that your phone?” and he went to it. It was loud enough. I haven’t heard his cell phone or even seen it in a long time and it bothered me all evening. Right after it went off he left in a real hurry like he was late for meeting someone. He did leave later than usual.

I don’t know why but hearing his cell phone really bothers me. I want to find out who keeps calling him or messages him but I suppose I never will. You could say I am on a mission. I asked V and he thinks it is probably his sister. I’m not so sure.

I heard it again tonight just before he left. But he didn’t seem to be in a big hurry to leave. I could hear him talking to some co-workers for awhile and when he walked by he said “See ya Pam.” Well, that really made my night! I acted like it didn’t excite me too much so I just said “See ya.” back to him. I don’t know why he is saying Goodnight to me lately, he never used to and he doesn’t say it to anyone else who is around me. If only he knew how much it made my day!

J worked tonight and I watched the Pittsburg vs Detroit game tonight. I was so happy Pittsburg won 4 – 2! It was a great game! I hope they win Thursday’s game!

Well, it ’s late and I tired. It was a busy day today. I hope it’s better tomorrow. I still have some catching up to do from last week. How is your week going?